'How are you today, Shannon?'
'Really? You seem tired.'
Hmm. Come to think of it, I was kind of drained. How do these people know?! Am I that obvious?!
Students and TZ teachers seem to know when I'm lacking in energy or not feeling 100%, even when I don't say a word. And my neighbor girls who lifted my spirits on that muddy day.
I made a couple local friends. One asked what I was doing on a Saturday and I said I was going to Arusha to run errands, then without really thinking, invited him to join. As soon as he accepted I thought twice. I really just wanted to check email and get groceries and had looked forward to doing it alone for the past week. But as soon as we arrived at the internet cafe, he asked how long I needed, then disappeared. Maybe it didn't appeal to him to stay, but I think he could sense that I really was just going to need space.
Another day after school I went with a fellow teacher to visit his former high school boarding school. It was great to experience, but at the end of the day I was definitely drained. And once again I thought I was rallying, but my friend called me out for being tired, and went on to say how thankful he was that I had joined, even though I was tired now. 'Friendships are so costly sometimes, in time and effort,' he said. Very true, but some are truly worth it, aren't they?